Looking into the future

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~ Jeremiah 29:11

When I was a kid I used to look forward to each new day. I knew for sure somehow there will be adventures and fun things will happen – I knew the day would be good. Fast forward (a bit more than) a couple of decades and I began the see the future with some trepidation. You see, as I grew into an adult, I started to want to be self-sufficient. I wanted to be in control. So when things didn’t turn out the way I wanted or expected them to, I became disappointed that the outcomes I worked towards didn’t manifest into the fruition of ……well, my dreams.

Then something happened. A career related dream of mine came true. I felt elated and on top of the world. Suffice to say, I had achieved something I worked very hard towards. I spent many years in university studying towards completing this degree and I was finally doing what I studied! But I also became proud. Actually arrogant. And I experienced being bullied and being…well not a nice person really. After a while I was emotionally and psychologically worn out. I felt things were totally out of control. I was on the verge of a breakdown. Speaking to my doctor about it, she suggested I resign and take some time off. After some time, I decided to take her advice for the sake of my own health. When it was time for me to go back to work, I didn’t feel confident anymore. My life had gone on a re-set and a lot of my priorities changed. My mother said the old me came back – the shy, kind-hearted girl (her words not mine) she used to know. I wasn’t sure how or even if I wanted to get back to the career I worked so hard for.

Then I experienced GOD’s heavenly guidance when HE opened the door for me. I don’t have the capacity I think, to live the intensive life I used to have. And I’m grateful for it. I learned to be humble and I’m grateful for that most of all. I also learned to look forward to each new day again and not feel afraid or wary of the future. I learned you see, two important things — 1) GOD’s love for me, though undeserved, is deep and everlasting and 2) He keeps His promises. And He promises in Jeremiah 29:11 that the future will be bright.

God bless you ~ A

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